• There was poo at the bus stop this morning. Right where I usually stand. It was definately poo, a big smear of it, as there was a whiff of poo smell on the breeze. Good start to my Monday.

    I’m counting down the weeks until I get holiday time. It’s at the beginning of October; or three four-day weeks, a five day week, and then another four day weeks, the a two-week break. Holiday time is important to think about on a Monday morning, especially when there was poo at the bus stop.

    This has been my summer: work, laze, sleep, repeat. With a little bit of sunshine here and there. Good summer. Lethargy is addictive, though, so I’m glad I’ll be able to go back to dance soon. I shall force my self to go move. My body will say “blaaaarg!” But my mind is stubborn and will make me go anyway.

    I meant to use my holiday time to visit SE Asia on a grand trip along the lines of my England trip last year. In the research I did in January, however, I decided I would rather go to China, for which I need more money, so then was planning for a CHINA 2012 trip. But now I will probably be going to Spain in February instead, and China will have to wait. In the meantime, I have two blank weeks of holiday coming up very shortly and I am looking forward to them.


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  • So I moved.  It happened.  Beh.  The bathroom in my new apartment is gross.  It’s got crusty bits and the bathtub is worn out.  The good thing is that it’s getting a little less gross each time I clean it.  Today I scrubbed with a hard-core pot scrubber to get rid of some of the rust on the fan cover.  I also “de-fuzzed” this fan cover.  Gross.  I also discovered that the lino under the cabinet is crusty with dust an ick.  But then I also found a little bit of old wallpaper stuck to the wall under there, as well.  It’s brocade-patterned and pale green.  Very pretty and a secret.

    There are lots of seagulls who live in my new neighbourhood.  They hang out sometimes on the roof of the carpark of the apartment behind me here.  “Come hang out here!” they squack to their friends.  “Be quiet!” I say out my window.  There are also some young human punks who climb up on the garbage bin of my apartment, up onto the same roof mentioned, and into the parking area of the apartment behind me.  It’s a shortcut!  I watch them with envy as I want a shortcut, too, but that route is just too climbey-uppy.


  • I finished “Spadework” last night. It was a really thick book but it didn’t take me long to read. Deceiving. The font was large and there weren’t many words on each page. I like that in a book because I feel speedy. I also like finishing books because then I feel accomplished.

    The end of the book came about pretty much with what I was hoping for. Clever-ish. Actually I’m the one who’s clever. I was thinking to myself during the last few pages that this was the story of a bunch of peole who just go about in an ordinary way, living their lives, routine, and that the novel catches them just when the routine is broken, and less-than-ordinary things start to happen to them. I don’t want to say “exciting” or “extraordinary” things because they aren’t. But given the context, things go astray. The image I had in my mind was that of a string, that we live our lives along a string and then at some times that string frays, or in the case of “Spadework” breaks apart with a *pop* (this is just the picture in my head). But then all those bits of fible that make up the string start to heal, and grow back together into a single string again, and routine is restored, and if it’s a novel then the characters are left with a suggestion that things are going to be OK.

    What makes me clever is that the author had the same image in mind, pretty much. The last image of the book is that of a river, obstructed a a dam, and then flowing on unchallenged. And that’s what the whole novel is. People overcoming obstacles that aren’t your run of the mill everyday obstacles, but nothing overly dramatic. And at the end I was pretty sure that everything was going to be alright.

    I was also thinking as I read that this was little more than a perfectly crafted work. That’s fine, I just like when novelists go a little wacky with their structure.


  • I’m reading “Spadework” by Timothy Findley. My first of his. At first it seemed a boring book, it’s in the prose of mundane American fiction. And then everything seemed too perfect: a woman and her family living and working in Stratford, Ontario, the man an actor, the woman an artist/ props maker. The child precotious. Being me, I just waited for something to break the normalness of it, like you do in a suspense film (which I don’t like, by the way). Slowly, the normal routine of the family is altered, elements sneaking in. Also, the perspectives of the periferal characters are sneaking in as well. The easy prose, the extra details that so far seem only to be filler where I would rather they contribute to something, as foreshadowing maybe, or is the subtext -all the details of the setting, for example- I hope they all add up to something in the end. I think it’s a sneaky book. I think the simpleness of the writing and the normalness of the family is a trick and both are going to fall away in the end into a clever resolution.

    P.S. It’s a sunny Sunday afternoon and I was reading my book while lying in the sun coming through my window. I spent the day getting rid of stuff and organizing. I recycled a whole pile of junk paper that I was keeping for the purposes of crafts. But really it was mostly paper I’d obtained from recycle bins in the first place and since I hadn’t used it yet, back it went.

    I cleared my bookshelf too. All my manga is going. I’m a grown up now (?). As well I’m getting rid of all my ancient philosophers. I’m a person of the contemporary age (?). Except for The Poetics because my copy is pretty. Also, do you know how many paper-dictionaries I have? Four. One is for cutting out of. One is my pocket Oxford. One was my dad’s and had a fetching red cloth cover. One is my concise Oxford with the thin paper. I like how the thin paper feels.


  • I woke up with a sore throat this morning. This isn’t too rare, it usually happens when I’ve eaten too many treats. In this case I had some wine and four after eights. I think it’s the after eights that might have done it. Those a soo sweet. But tasty.


  • I’ve been eating so much lately. For most of last week it was Subway sandwiches, but then I decided I would soon run out of money if I ate those with such frequency. (Grammar there?) I’ve been abundant in the lunch-making. Two weeks ago: baked spaghetti. Last week: cheesy tuna cass. This week: stir fry. And I have remaining portions of the first two enough to feed me for all of the week coming up. I’m dbating, though, supplementing that pile with something new. Last week I was practical, too, prepping ham goo for sandwiches I could make and eat in the space of time between work and dance. I’m not sure if this run will last. My fridge is becoming empty. Thought what I like about making my lunches for the week ahead of time is that I don’t have to think about what I’m going to eat during the week. And having food ready for myself for after work was nice too, not having to groan and figure it out when I got home to a fridge full of miscellaneous ingredients and a freezer full of frozen things. I like best when I have a pot full of taco goo to slop into burritos. I have to make more of those.

    Last night I couldn’t decide whether I wanted pancakes for dinner or leftover steak fried up and eaten with pasta. So I had both. I didn’t finish all the pancakes though so I musn’t have been as hungry as I thought. Last Saturday morning when I had a little bit of a hangover I had tacos and fried eggs. It’s these multi-dish meals that make me say that I’m eating a lot. It’s winter I guess and I need the extra energy to keep warm.


  • I meant to do things today: clean the bathroom, tidy my house, do dishes.  Etcetera.  Instead I had a two hour nap this afternoon.  It felt as though I was getting sick when I woke up this morning, so maybe my body was just trying to conquer that.  I feel better now.  Better-ish.  Long naps make me feel kind of ikky, but I lay in bed when I woke up for a while.  Recovering?  From my nap?  I wouldn’t have gotten up but I have a ballet show to watch tonight.

    My house is a mess.  But I have other stuff I want to do here.  There’s not enough time.  I’ll see what I can get done tomorrow.  (It’s not really gross or anything, just more cluttered that I am comfortable with.  I need to do recycling, for example, and generally just pick up after my slobby self.)


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  • I had my wisdom teeth removed last Tuesday.  This means I have been several days without raisins. I want to eat them, I do, but the thought of digging little bits of chewed up raisin out of my tooth holes just grosses me out.  Just having salad today was awful.  Delishious, but awful. I have to do a salt water rinse after every meal, and spitting out multicoloured bits of crumb into the sink was gross.  And then the pain killers the dentist gave me, while effective, are slowly eating my stomach lining.  I’m off them now, making me the worst drug addict ever as there are some left over in the bottle.

    Note: banana pancakes are good, but would be better with raisins.

    Note 2: Dad brought me a new house plant.  One of the green furry ones. He and Mum have such faith in me they just keep replacing the plants I kill off with new ones.  So far, so good. Ok, I just checked and I’m pretty sure it’s a real plant.

    Note 3: I’d like to say that the best part of my oral surgery was the two tablets of Atavan I took before the procedure, and it was fun at first (and resulted in my not knowing what was going on when, in fact, what was going on was the dentist pulling out my teeth) but afterwards I just felt sick.  Conclusion: no best part of oral surgery.  I lie: the best part was all the applesauce (good with raisins, but not *better* with raisins.)


  • I had a pretty good week at work.  It was nice going to a place where everyone was happy to see me.  My co-worker and I, both starting this week, got applause at the branch meeting when we were introduced, which I liked.  I’ve also gotten welcome back hugs.  That was just the first and second day.  Mostly everyone has left me alone because I have reading to do and for the most part try to look like I’m reading it.  My goal for next week is to try and get into a better sleep routine.  Booooo to being tired all the time.


  • Two words I don’t like: gestalt (bleh) and redux (bleh!)

    One word I do like: reticent (so pretty).

    I’m so tired. I’m curled up under the covers waiting to sleep. Though obviously it is not fast coming as I have gotten up to fetch my phone to write this. Yesterday was the same: so tired but couldn’t sleep. I may have had the teensiest of naps yesterday evening around 7. Big mistake! I had a little eye-shut drifting time today before dance, but then I danced! I’m so pooped I can’t even think up a metaphor to describe how tired I am.

    Review of Harry Potter, book 6 – first 40 pages: Snape! Hoo hoo hoo. Snape. Otherwise I’m too tired to hold it up to read.