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  • Musings on having only three days left before my trip to Vietnam.

    Today was my last day at work before my trip. It didn’t really hit me, however,  until about ten minutes before I left, when I had a feeling of “now things are starting!”

    The day went surprisingly quick for the kind of day it was. I kept finding things to do. Also, people kept coming by to wish me a good time. I feel I deserve points for not only remembering to change the message on my voice-mail, but actually recording it, which is one of my least favorite things to do ever. I deserve extra points for listening to it when I was done to make sure it was audible and sensible. I doubly hate listening to myself. (For assistance, I wrote myself a script a few weeks ago AND set a reminder so I had no excuse whatsoever. Except maybe if I didn’t want to.) I especially enjoyed writing on the vacation board that I won’t be returning until August 11, exactly one month from today.

    This evening I started packing and re-packing and generally editing my bags. It was in a bit of a manic fashion so I thought it would be best to leave the house so I’ve come to the studio to watch a bellydance show. This is the group is was in a show with last year, and I didn’t really get to see them, but what I saw- the finale, from a weird angle behind a lot of people- looked interesting. I can’t really pack until I do laundry tomorrow, anyway.

    Edit: bellydance-circus fusion.

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  • I bet you’re wondering: why is Lindsie so calm with just 20 days before her trip to Vietnam? Well I’ve been distracting myself by reading all of the young adult fantasy with strong female heros that have been published over the past ten years or so. I stopped reading this particular genre due to reading other things (and doing other things besides reading like dancing and working and talking to other humans) and I’ve found that in recent years, the female main characters of these books have changed a bit. Before the goal was to end up with the main male characters happily ever after and that. Now they end up with him but it’s extra to some other motivation, and maybe even they don’t end up together at all. Crazy. There are examples of this happening when I was an actual young adult, of course, but I always wanted more.

    I have downloaded the last two books of one series on to my phone to take with me on the plane or wherever. I know I’ll like them because I’ve read the first two, and I know they’ll be a quick-fun-distracting read. Guaranteed time waster. It’s called the Seven Realms series and it’s published by Disney, so I’m suspicious but I read them anyway.

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  • I had a dream last night where people
    kept invading my space. I was in my apartment and my roommate had invited all these people over and they were setting up for a Jennifer Lopez concert. This involved renovating my apartment and the whole building into a shiny mall with a raised platform for a stage. I didn’t get to the concert because I woke up. “Woke up” because I was in another dream where I was being woken up by someone kissing me: *someone who hadn’t been there when I went to bed.* So they had not only snuck into bed with me but also unlocked the door to my apartment to get in. It was ok in the end because it turned out that we were previously acquainted, but I was still shocked and annoyed. Then I woke up from that dream and I was back in real life.

    Today is Friday. All I have pending for the weekend is to do dishes, as I don’t believe I have cleaned any since least weekend. I’ve been busy this week. Except for Tuesday, I’ve been out every night. There weren’t very many dishes on Tuesday so I left them, and anyway, I didn’t want to do them then anyway. I sometime get to them on Wednesday if it don’t do them on Tues but I was a bit rushed, having gotten home a bit late from an accupuncture appointment, and having to take an extra nap (I had dozed at accupuncture, but then afterwards I felt sick, and napping, along with eating, seemed like, and was, a good cure. I have a new favorite thing that I ate: brown rice, black beans, sourkraut and avacado. It’s a recipe from the gluten-free cookbook mum got me for my birthday. I’m going to have another portion tonight before dance. I had a burrito as well on Wednesday, so maybe I’ll do that again, too.)

    Then last night I went for dinner with Susan. We went to Value Village after. I finally got to try Be Love and I had everything: dinner, dessert and a milkshake.

  • I’ve been sick a lot lately. It sucks as I have things to do. I had to cancel my birthday party (not this past Saturday but the one before) but the invitees came for a visit anyway and gave me presents. And cupcakes. Tamara made vegan cupcakes. I still have some in the freezer. Susan got me a map of the world to hang on my wall, which I find most pleasing. I haven’t hung it up yet. I will soon. I was sick and then I was busy. Yesterday (Sunday) I was busy watching movies. I also made myself a pile of food for this week. This is a five-day week, but it is the last five-day week I have for a while. I made a roast.

    I started acupuncture last Wednesday. It was the last straw, since I’ve been sick three times in the past 10 weeks or so (eight weeks! I just counted). I was at the doctor a couple weeks or so just to make sure I didn’t have something I could take a pill for. The doctor was very helpful, but didn’t have anything useful for me except to say that what I’m going through is perfectly normal. So that made me feel better, a bit. So now acupuncture to try to fill in the gaps. I felt a lot better after my appointment on Wed (no weak legs! Clear-ish respiratory system). So that was great. I went again on Sat but my legs were still weak after. Lungs were clearer though. I went Sat and it was someone else than who I had on Wed, so it was a bit different. Wed guy said come to see him again on Monday but that wasn’t going to work (I was meant to be helpdesk today and I didn’t want to mess that up). So I changed my appointments to Sat and then this Wed (when the original guy is working again). I think it’s working. It’s defiantly helping with the remnants of my cold or whatever it was. I didn’t stay for a whole hour on Sat so it might have worked better if I stayed.

    Acupuncture on Wed, and then a massage on Thurs. I sent an e-request to see a consultant at the travel health clinic but I’m yet to hear back from them. I should have waited to make my massage appointment just in case – but I did request a morning appointment at the travel health place.

    Appointments!

  • I am sick again this week and I am upset about it. I keep getting sick and when I am not sick I still am not fully better. I don’t think my attempts to make myself feel better by omitting pasta and fruit from my diet is working as my legs are still weak-feeling every day.

    I visited a doctor yesterday at the clinic and it was OK. The doctor was nice. He was new to me but he was very patient and was quite encouraging. We’ll. He said that mono sometimes goes on and on when adults get it and that I might just have to wait for it to go away.   He sent me for some blood tests, just is case, but said he’d be surprised if it was actually anything. So bittersweet. He said what I was going through is perfectly normal, so that made me feel better (really!)

    I don’t know what to do about dance.

  • Review of “Everybody Has Everything” by Katrina Onstad. In the first pages we find that a man has died in a car crash and his wife is in a coma. Their two-year-old son is left to their (newish) friends to care for. This is the story of that couple, the friends, taking in the kid. They are otherwise childless. It’s simple, but the writing is beautiful. We read about people and their reactions and that is all.

  • It’s Treat Week this week since I don’t have dance. It started with a bang on Saturday when I had a maple macciato from Starbucks. That kept me up and active until just before two in the morning. I did art. Around midnight I noticed that I was hungry and that I hadn’t eaten since pizza at lunch. I went to Thrifty’s for honey nut cherrios and vanilla oreos, of course. I should not drink coffee on a regular basis. It makes me weird.

  • I keep waking up at 3:30 am and then lying awake for an hour or an hour-and-a-half before sleeping a bit more before my alarm goes. This is ok when I’m asleep by 9:30 or 10 the night before, and even makes sence since I’ve probable slept enough, but last night I wasn’t in bed until close to 11 and so I slept through my alarm this morning. It wasn’t too dramatic, just woke up 10 minutes after I usually start thinking about getting up, so I had to be a bit more organized to get out the door on time.

    I still have a weird sore throat today. It’s a sporadic sore and I’m not 100% sure what’s causing it. I don’t mind if it’s related to sugar intake in place of having shakey/weak legs. My sugar intake symptoms are sometimes like that: shifting. My left hand is quite sore today too, like arthritis or something and this is deffo something I used to get when I ate too much sugar. Again I don’t mind if this replaces my skakey/weak legs, however, I don’t know about it as I haven’t consumed very much sugar since it’s started hurting. Fruit bread on Monday and Wednesday nights after dance. Or typing on my phone maybe.

    Birthday reveries are planned for March 29, the week after my birthday. I’ll go up to Duncan for my birthday day. I should plan more festivities for that week and, you know, make it a true birthday week. Though now that I think of it, I only have Thursday free since there’s a play on Tuesday.

  • My throat keeps getting sore. Maybe when I consume sugar? Not pleased with this. I’ll rest today as I have no plans for after work today. I’ve prepared myself an echinacea tea.

    I watched a lot of TV on Sunday. As a result I went to the library yesterday and got a couple of books, one of which I plan to read. I tried one of them but didn’t like it much so I shall return it. Too American, but I half sort of expected to not like it because of this. It had a good premise, and from the point of view from a woman with schizophrenia, but no go. I know maybe I should read more than a chapter, or half a chapter before making my decision, but whatever. I don’t want to waste my time.

    I want to watch a movie called “Hyde Park on hudson” this evening and eat salmon spaghetti. My mum bought me gluten-free pasta at Costco so I might try that. Yes. I’ve just decided that I shall, too super make sure that I feel good tomorrow.

    They brought me some fruit bread, too, mum and dad. I was supposed to take it at Christmas but everyone forgot so I have it now. I had a couple slices last night after dance. They were covered in lots of luscious butter that coated nicely my mouse and chair when I dropped. Hoo. Still tasty. I’ll save the rest for next week when I have no dance and will eat what I please for several days.

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  • I don’t feel very good today. I’m afraid that I’m sick again after just getting better from the last time I was sick, like, a couple weeks ago. It feels like the same sick, too, where I’m all weak. Shit. I’m having warm liquids and echinacea throughout the day. Oh right: my throat is sore too as I was just reminded when I swallowed. I’ll have to see how I feel when I stand up again: I am on the lunchroom couch at work.

    I don’t want to be sick because I wish to dance this evening. I’ll nap after work and if I don’t wake up then I won’t go. I think there’s a sub tonight anyway.

    Boo.

    Last night I wasn’t feeling good with sore throat so I went to bed just before 7 and listened to Ideas and played solitaire on my phone. Mono-style. Rock. On.

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