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Category: Sick

  • It’s remembrance day so I spent some time remembering, and thinking. It doesn’t feel like enough.

    I’m showing symptoms: sore throat, tight chest and a bit of a cough. It’s the chest part that worries me, but only because it lasts. There are respiratory problems with H1N1, but my chest always gets tight when I’m sick so I don’t know if I should worry about it in this new way or not. While I think about that I’m knitting and writing my Nano. While I knit I have “The Eyre Affair” on CD to listen to. I’m going to start a new patten, though, so I think I’ll have to leave the “book” off for a while so I can think about my rounds. (Of knitting… and each one is going to be different, which is why I have to think and leave off the book, which would either be distracting, or wouldn’t get listened to properly).

    I use the word “probably” too much in my writing. Things should either be what they are, or not, and no probably about it. I occasionally blame my characters for their indecisiveness; however, ultimately, their indecisiveness is my fault, isn’t it?

    There was nothing on TV last night so I wrote instead. I wish this was how things progressed in my normal routine.

  • I’m up early because I woke up and instead of rolling over and going back to sleep I got up. Yesterday and the day before and the day before I’ve been sick and so have been in bed for most of the time. Yesterday at 4:30 I decided this was enough and got up and felt better enough, I suppose. My face is still leaking, though and I don’t have much energy. I’m going to lie in bed for a while now and watch Corrie, getting up only at 8 to take my laundry down so I have things to wear in the coming week.

    I decided last night that I am too pretty pretty to ever be in a punk band, but the yelling with guitars looks like a lot of fun.

  • I have a cold. Again. Urg.

    The good news is, I had a nap today.

    The other good news is that now I have benefits and, therefore, sick days.

    Some more good news is that I’ve started drawing again. Just in the old style, with a pen. I found like six books that I’d made and then filled with various marks and such and was inspired. I was also delighted because I’m funny and I draw funny. You can quote me on that. In fact, quote me on that now, and often.

    Some annoying news is that I’ve been playing with my web page and it is no longer showing up at puddlelilies.com. For now– it’s just a glitch I hope.

    I had a dream during my nap and apparently it’s the second time I’ve had it. At least, while I was having the dream, I was thinking to myself that I’d had it before. 1) I’m in a car with my partner (like I’m in the FBI and we’re on a case). 2) We get to the place we’re going, look around and then my partner finds some stairs and goes down and I follow. This whole time it’s too bright and I have to cover my eyes. 3) When we’re down the stairs we’re looking around I notice there’s a window and Mulder and Scully are watching us, only they’re really big, and it seems that when my partner and I came down the stairs we also shrunk and walked ourselves into a diorama box. 4) Then there’s some people chasing us. 5) Then we’re in the car again and pulling off the blanket we had put over the window before because the light was too bright for me when we were driving before.

    I haven’t had a dream where I couldn’t open my eyes for a long time. Am I missing something?

  • I went to the doctor and she suggested that since there is nothing wrong with my lungs, and my heart is in perfect health, that I don’t have asthma, and that my shortness of breath is caused by anxiety.  This caused some grief, but one I got over my anxiety over having anxiety I realized that all I have to do is breath properly.  The doctor suggested meditation and yoga. She also said just to push through dance class, as I have been sitting out once I run out of breath.  I don’t want to do meditation or yoga, but dance class I can do.

  • I’m tired but ok.  I’m trying to think of a new tiny string story but I haven’t dedicated the minutes needed to do so as of yet.  I just took some echinacea pills and I think they got stuck on the way down my food-tube.  Owie.

    My apartment is still clean despite it being a whole day since I last tidied it.  Probably helping this is that I was at work for many hours today.

    My chest feels betterer today.  I’m crossing my fingers (again) that I can get through more of my dance class tomorrow.  PS in regards to dance class: I took only half-classes last week but am wholey stiff from that.  Good times.  Good times.

  • I cleaned my house but now I feel too tired to do anything else today.  I will rest.  My chest is still tight.  I’ve  been going to work ok but only doing half dance classes all week long.  My lingering ailment is getting annoying.

    Tomorrow is the start of two 5-day work weeks for me.  I’ve traded flex days so that I’m free on the 30th to go to the so you thinky dance tour in Vancouver.

    I went to another Imax yesterday.  It was about dinosaurs.  Nothing else can show you how big dinosaurs actually were like Imax can.

    I’m trying to acquire more modest spending habits.  At least for a while, anyway.  My budget this week let me purchase anything only today, Sunday, and that is only groceries.  I cheated a little on Friday when I bought a bottle of Astralagus, and there’s no excuse for doing so except that I saw it and wanted it.  I guess I also went out for dinner on Wednesday too.  Oh well.  It’s not like when I had literally no money in my account.  I’m just trying to buy less stuff that I don’t really need….  Like new boots.  *Sigh*.

  • Let me tell you that it took way too long to recover after dance class today, breathing wise.  I didn’t even make it through the whole class without my legs shaking.

    Oh well.  Work has been fun.

    Oh my goodness it’s raining out.  But really warm so I didn’t notice how wet I was until I got inside and my pants were soaked through.

  • Happy One Year Living in Victoria (again) to me.

    In celebration I bought fruit and ironed my clothes.  Just the clothes that needed ironing, not all of them.  That would be foolish and annoying.  I probably should have vaccuumed, too, but there is only so much time in a two day weekend.  What I did do, though, was organize and upload photos, the link to which I will publish shortly.  It was good to be feeling better enough to get mundane stuff completed, which is what Sundays are usually for.

  • I’m so lazy lately.  I’m just sitting around watching TV episodes and snacking.  Part of this is laziness, part is trying to recover from another couple of colds I’ve had in the last month.  These vex me and also hamper my ability to attend dance classes.  I wish I was snacking on something interesting to describe but it’s just chips and oatmeal.  Also rice since I got a rice cooker for Xmas.

  • The rain was so loud last night it woke me up. It was great.

    I finally did my laundry after not doing it for more than 2 weeks. The delay was because I was sick and week. Now I am better and can therefore do laundry, which makes me feel good to have it done.

    Yesterday was a bit of a dud day but my reason is just. I went for a walk for the first time since being ill and may have over done it a little, just in that my stamina isn’t quite recovered yet. But I was out before the rains came. I explored Fernwood, making it all the way to their village. So many great houses. More rustic than Fairfield and Rockland, but not dumpy either!

    Today I’m trying to write some stuff. Today I’m trying not to watch TV because I did that yesterday, and kindof that’s all I’ve done for the past three weeks and I’m getting so bored of it. The Olympic opening was pretty good though.