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  • My eyes have been drooping all day today.  I don’t know why this is as I slept fine and I am not actually tired.  Maybe it’s from staring at the computer screen too much.

    It must be that time again when I am trying to change my life.  I’m spending too much manic time looking at university web sites.  This is fine, as they are all well designed and informative, but I don’t really want to go anywhere or study anything.  Except maybe to Vancouver to study art at Emily Carr University.  Later.  Later.

    My mind feels blank but I want to write a story.  One with a conflict.  There has been a real lack of conflict in what I’ve been writing lately.  Or issues or anything.  Just mostly I write about people thinking and there’s a minor argument going on in their mind.  I really need to find some tension, or controversy to explain.

    I’ve found two things to look at when I go to Vancouver this weekend.  Vancouver isn’t as fun to go to any more now that I live in a place that has all the various mall stores.  Not like Duncan that didn’t.  Anyway I’ve found some places to go.  One is Dressew, which is the fabric/mega-wack crafty stuff store that Julie took me to last year and that I forgot about (but then, how often have I been in Van since then?  Once?  Twice!) and also Spartacus books, or the used book store I usually go to when I’m downtown.  See how much time I have/how much I feel like walking around.

  • I am plum tuckered out. After publishing and dancing I am ready to sleep now. I will however, be hungry in just a short while, probably. I don’t feel like making anything or eating it right now.

    I have a sweater that is too small that I keep meaning to adjust but I can’t be bothered. It’s a nice sweater as it is and I don’t want to change it.

  • This is awesome:

    http://www.cbc.ca/arts/artdesign/story/2009/01/23/darcy-portrait-sale.html

  • I was on course today which means I had time to think about things.  This is what I came up with:

    Bus rides: a scale of time.

    Less than 5 min = Short bus ride

    5-15 min = longish

    15-30 min = long bus ride

    30-60 mins and up = looooooooooong

    This was cleverer in my head…

  • The writer is aware that “Isis” is a girl’s name.

    I changed the music in my MP3 player to autumn music.  This includes mostly just Radiohead’s “Kid A”, which in my mind is the colour and shape of autumn leaves.

  • I’m trying to read all the zines I have but it’s slow going because some of the text is very small and scrawly.

    My “eating table” has turned into a “work table” complete with a little tin full of pens. I shove some of the “work” aside so I can eat, but then it’s so I can “work” and “eat” at the same time.

    I’ve been watching all the summer comedies. I don’t know if they’re any “good” or not, all I know is that I laugh at them, or with them or whatever and I can make it through the whole thing without wishing I hadn’t bothered in the first place.

  • Tonight for dinner I had 2 eggs, a thick piece of dad’s bread, 3 perogies and 3 bacons.

    And that pretty much sums up my day.

  • I have tiredness throughout my body. Hoo. I am going to go to Duncan this weekend and do laundry (which is a bonus activity I thought of after talking to mum in an email.)

  • Cornbread!

    My apartment is warm with the hot weather AND the oven on. I will turn off the latter shortly. As soon as the cornbread is finished baking, of course. I can see the pan in the oven from my seat. All I have to do is turn left and rotate my head a little.

    I had a good day and bought ice cream.

  • Pretty Arms

    I have pretty arms:
    “Put them in a ballet pose!”
    And I am happy.