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Month: September 2025

  • Breathing (Day 3)

    I took my first deep breath of the day tonight as I lie in bed watching a television programme on my laptop. I’ve just taken my echinacea in two forms so maybe that’s why. Does echinacea even do anything? I don’t know. I said it maybe. Note that I’ve been breathing fine, I just didn’t have a Nice Deep Breath until now.

    I drank cider all afternoon with my chum I’ll call “Susan”. That doesn’t need to be in quotes. That’s her real name. I made pasta with cucumber and tomato salad and salmon with lemon and various herbs. And roasted zucchini. A Use Up As Many Things As Possible lunch so that I Can Fit Things In My Fridge Again.

  • Breathing (Day 2)

    Yesterday (Monday) my first deep breath of the day was while I was sitting at the counter at my parents’ house, eating a seed & nut bar. Needing to eat because I was going to drive home and needed the energy, only able to eat a seed & nut bar because I wasn’t really hungry yet. Or hungry but didn’t feel like eating? It wasn’t a very big deep breath and my chest felt tight. I was out of breath from packing up the car: not something I should be out of breath for. It was after I took my inhaler. I proceeded with the day ok, and did a dance class later with just a little huffiness. But. Hm.

    I haven’t taken a deep breath today.

    I’m at the precious time of the year when I have brought home a box of tomatoes from Dad’s harvest, but I have tomatoes ripening here as well. Overlap.

  • Breathing (Day 1)

    I’m in Duncan for the weeeeeekend. “Weeeeeeekend” because I arrived on Thursday and will leave tomorrow (Monday). Here there is the Duncan Farmers Market and “Hand of Man” museum (yesterday). And fresh tomatoes, beans, zucchinis, cabbage and etc. I picked two buckets of beans yesterday for my own personal use (“YES TAKE THEM ALL” says Dad.) Also I had to hose down my car while I was here because it was covered in ash. I used the scrubber brush while I was at it to remove all the moss. AND I watched the Canada/New Zealand women’s rugby game, which was gorgeous.

    My first deep breath of the day today was just a few minutes ago while I’m sitting on my bed reading. I’m sitting up against pillows, “lounging” so it’s easy to get a nice breath in. It’s not as big of a breath as I am usually capable of, but I’m going back and forth between being better and still recovering from being sick. Safely out of the acute sickness stage, for sure, which is good, but not entirely back to normal, either. We wait. And the doctor said wait, too, when I checked in.