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Month: August 2025

  • August 5 2025

    I came here today because I’ve been meaning to start a new series of posts where I document the circumstances of the first deep breath I take each day. I’ve only remembered to do it today, which is a day when I did not take any deep breaths. I’m feeling huffy today for reasons unknown. (“Huffy” def. in Lindsie speak, is when my lungs are tight; I’m breathing but it’s not as free as it might be; I should probably find my salbutamol inhaler to ease it.)

    OK not totally unknown. My lungs protest sometimes when I’ve had too much sugar/choco/alcohol. Which is why I try to watch my consumption of these things during the dance season. It’s barely the hint of a sacrifice on my part. I asked myself years ago whether I wanted to eat junk or breath during dance and I made my decision. (To breath.) But an advantage is no sugar/choco/alcohol = healthy.

    I think I used to get huffy, also, when I was under a constant state of stress and anxiety? Certain former paid positions come to mind where I had to answer the phone all day. But that’s not today.

    I don’t feel like eating much today either, but that’s likely to to over-indulging all weekend long. There were a couple times at least where I thought to myself after a meal that that was tooooooo much food.

    Choco-chip zucchini loaf! I made one yesterday and then ate too much. It’s tasty. I have a good chunk of it left but I’ll eat it in smaller portions. Or have a larger portion but that will be a meal.

  • David Letterman

    Not last night but the night before I dreamed that my friend Susan took new living accommodations in a big shared house where she was sleeping on a mat on the floor at the end someone’s bed. Instead of saying I was proud of her, like I knew I should, I said she could probably find a better living situation. I knew immediately that this was wrong. But she and I have reconciled about this in real life and everything is fine now.

    Somehow after that dream, or as I was waking up, I started ranking late night talk show hosts. Late night talk show hosts must be on my mind lately with Colbert getting fired, and I just watched an episode of his when I was at my parents’ house.

    Seth Meyers I like because we saw him live when we were in New York. He talked to Paul Rudd when we saw him so that was a famous person, even. Most recently though I saw him on tiktok talking ALL CAPS to Pamela Anderson, who was just lovely and only talks in small caps, I guess. I wanted him to Shhhh just a bit.
    I only watch Jimmy Fallon when there are BTS members appearing, because he is their late night talk show host of choice. That’s all I really have to say about him, EXCEPT that he has a flavour of ice cream named after him that comes in a dairy-free version and it is very tasty. I guess it’s named after his show, actually, but I call it “Jimmy Fallon Flavoured Ice Cream.” I liked Jimmy Fallon more when he did the news on SNL. But he’s nice to the BTS members, so.

     I forgot about Jimmy Kimmle. Kimmel? He’s been around a while. I’ve watched compilations of his feud with Matt Damon. Funny.

    I never watched Craig Ferguson until he was finished his run and then I went on a spree watching all of his content on YouTube. He has several things going for him that i enjoy: he is basically completely unhinged. Did he ever have a script? Who knows. I don’t think so.  But also he featured a pantomime horse with an accompanying song and dance that the host and guests would do when ever it appeared. I don’t even have words to express how much I love this, although I have Youtube history showing how many instances of this I have watched.

    I would watch Conan O’Brian waaaaay back in the day when he was on at 12:30 am. Also unhinged. Sometimes I would laugh a lot. Mostly it was an accomplishment to be awake that late. I recently watched his special for getting the Mark Twain award for being a particularly funny american. It was a good time.

    Colbert is the best when he talks about Lord of the Rings, or when someone tries to best him in LOTR trivia. There’s something else I like too, but I can’t remember. When I was watching just recently I was like OH, this is him doing that thing he does. I wonder what it was. Probably something smart. My parents record him and watch while eating dinner, that’s when I was watching, so maybe it wasn’t Colbert that I was impressed with so much as it was roast chicken dinner with corn and caesar salad, and I got to eat all of the caesar salad because no one else wanted any!

    And then David Letterman. I like that he has the kind of humor that is straight-faced and entirely disinterested or indifferent. For some reason in the mid-90’s he was on at 3:30 in the afternoon on channel 6 so my brother I I would watch and do homework (or not? maybe? I don’t remember him ever doing homework, but I might have.)