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Month: March 2014

  • I am sick again this week and I am upset about it. I keep getting sick and when I am not sick I still am not fully better. I don’t think my attempts to make myself feel better by omitting pasta and fruit from my diet is working as my legs are still weak-feeling every day.

    I visited a doctor yesterday at the clinic and it was OK. The doctor was nice. He was new to me but he was very patient and was quite encouraging. We’ll. He said that mono sometimes goes on and on when adults get it and that I might just have to wait for it to go away.   He sent me for some blood tests, just is case, but said he’d be surprised if it was actually anything. So bittersweet. He said what I was going through is perfectly normal, so that made me feel better (really!)

    I don’t know what to do about dance.

  • Review of “Everybody Has Everything” by Katrina Onstad. In the first pages we find that a man has died in a car crash and his wife is in a coma. Their two-year-old son is left to their (newish) friends to care for. This is the story of that couple, the friends, taking in the kid. They are otherwise childless. It’s simple, but the writing is beautiful. We read about people and their reactions and that is all.

  • It’s Treat Week this week since I don’t have dance. It started with a bang on Saturday when I had a maple macciato from Starbucks. That kept me up and active until just before two in the morning. I did art. Around midnight I noticed that I was hungry and that I hadn’t eaten since pizza at lunch. I went to Thrifty’s for honey nut cherrios and vanilla oreos, of course. I should not drink coffee on a regular basis. It makes me weird.

  • I keep waking up at 3:30 am and then lying awake for an hour or an hour-and-a-half before sleeping a bit more before my alarm goes. This is ok when I’m asleep by 9:30 or 10 the night before, and even makes sence since I’ve probable slept enough, but last night I wasn’t in bed until close to 11 and so I slept through my alarm this morning. It wasn’t too dramatic, just woke up 10 minutes after I usually start thinking about getting up, so I had to be a bit more organized to get out the door on time.

    I still have a weird sore throat today. It’s a sporadic sore and I’m not 100% sure what’s causing it. I don’t mind if it’s related to sugar intake in place of having shakey/weak legs. My sugar intake symptoms are sometimes like that: shifting. My left hand is quite sore today too, like arthritis or something and this is deffo something I used to get when I ate too much sugar. Again I don’t mind if this replaces my skakey/weak legs, however, I don’t know about it as I haven’t consumed very much sugar since it’s started hurting. Fruit bread on Monday and Wednesday nights after dance. Or typing on my phone maybe.

    Birthday reveries are planned for March 29, the week after my birthday. I’ll go up to Duncan for my birthday day. I should plan more festivities for that week and, you know, make it a true birthday week. Though now that I think of it, I only have Thursday free since there’s a play on Tuesday.

  • My throat keeps getting sore. Maybe when I consume sugar? Not pleased with this. I’ll rest today as I have no plans for after work today. I’ve prepared myself an echinacea tea.

    I watched a lot of TV on Sunday. As a result I went to the library yesterday and got a couple of books, one of which I plan to read. I tried one of them but didn’t like it much so I shall return it. Too American, but I half sort of expected to not like it because of this. It had a good premise, and from the point of view from a woman with schizophrenia, but no go. I know maybe I should read more than a chapter, or half a chapter before making my decision, but whatever. I don’t want to waste my time.

    I want to watch a movie called “Hyde Park on hudson” this evening and eat salmon spaghetti. My mum bought me gluten-free pasta at Costco so I might try that. Yes. I’ve just decided that I shall, too super make sure that I feel good tomorrow.

    They brought me some fruit bread, too, mum and dad. I was supposed to take it at Christmas but everyone forgot so I have it now. I had a couple slices last night after dance. They were covered in lots of luscious butter that coated nicely my mouse and chair when I dropped. Hoo. Still tasty. I’ll save the rest for next week when I have no dance and will eat what I please for several days.