Month: May 2009

  • Something strange is going on:

    my house is messy so I go stay in a hotel.

    I need to do laundry so I buy new clothes

    I’m down to condiments and wine in my fridge… so I go out for supper? I guess condiment toast is good when you’re drunk, though…

    I don’t really like the person who is forming here. But I don’t really want to do my chores either.

    Do you ever have to talk to your inner five-year-old?

    “Do you have to pee? Why are you wiggling? Is it because you have to pee? Do you maybe just want to go to the washroom and see if you have to pee?”

    “Do you need a nap? You seem a little grumpy… maybe if you just lay down for a while and close your eyes you’d feel better.”

    “Just have two cookies, that’s enough. Ok, five, but put the bag away now, that’s enough… Maybe you feel sick because you ate the whole bag, I told you, didn’t I?”

    “Don’t eat that, it was on the floor.”

    “I know it’s shiny but that doesn’t mean you have to buy it. I don’t care if you have a credit card.”

  • I just just just talked to Mom and Dad Simpson via Kimberly on facebook. I feel like I’ve been hugged and am very happy.

    Mom and Dad Simpson are of course Kimberly’s parents. I send them my x-mas letter if I write one and the occasional issue of T.S. (the one titled “Kimberly” for example).

    They used to visit Victoria when Kimberly lived here, and when K lived in Victoria she lived with me! They would camp on our living room floor (first in our cluster house in res at UVic, and then in our apartment on Belcher) and I have been assured that this is what they are doing now on a visit to K in Quesnel. Once they made a big dinner of spaghetti and while we were eating it, Jordan and Alli showed up and there was of course enough for them as well. (Even though Jordan and Alli were most polite and declined at first.)

    Another time, in res, Kimberly (or Tanya I don’t remember) had a sheet that we hung on the wall and we all drew on it with crayola markers. Mom and Dad S were there and they were excited about it and it was a party.

    I don’t have any crayola markers at the moment. Maybe that’s what my life is missing.

    Anyway. They sent me hugs and kisses over the internet. They laughed when I told them that my cure for my hangover last weekend was to go to ballet class. That started because Dad S said that he used to party Fri and Sat night when he lived in Victoria and then go for a walk on the beach on Sun. To which Mom S replied, the walk was to get over his hangover.

    They also laughed when I asked if they had made food for Kimberly while they were there, but I guess they went out for dinner instead, which I guess is pretty much the same thing. (This is what Mum and Dad — no initial needed — do.)

    I told them how pleased I am with myself, working and dancing and making new chums.

    I’m tired tonight. I already had a nap after dance class. Dance class kicked my ass, but I felt strong and not tired so that’s getting better. I’ve decided not to participate in the end of year shindig, just because I don’t really want to perform this year. Last year I was, of all things, annoyed that I had to get up in front of people. It was fun in the end, but maybe I need to not perform this year so I will like it again next year? I don’t know. I’m a big fan of dance class, where I don’t have to perform, just get my ass kicked. Although maybe I’ll change my mind. In class today, after I’d spoken to my teacher of my decision, I was thinking to myself, shoot, maybe it would be fun. But then the real reason I don’t want to do it is because I will either be without a job at the end of the month (stressful) or starting a new job at some point (also stressful) and I don’t want to anxiety myself into sickness or breakdown. Also, I have technically requested holidays for the middle week of June with the original intention of skipping town and going to hang out at the Carlson’s recitals like I always do. But you know, if I don’t get those holidays due to only being extended to the end of June I could always do the end of year shindig with my own dance school.

    This is how my head is circling. It’s not a manic circle! It’s just circling. But my first choice (because in reality I Always know what I really want to do) I want my vacation days and I want to go to Duncan for a week and watch dancing. I just keep having to have back up plans for everything. Arg. But I’d rather do the prep work than snap.

  • I’ve been using a lot of paint on my painting. This is because it takes a lot of paint to make it look how I want it to look. Painting is getting heavy. Literally.

    Instead of sliding my foot along the floor whilst moving into second position plie in dance class, I stubbed my toe. Then later someone kicked my hand with their grand battement to the back. When this happened I said sorry. For you know, getting my hand in the way. The more dance class I do the worse I am getting. So great. (Not really! I just want to sound cool.)

    Everything is normal. (Not really! Nothing is ever normal. You should know that.)

    That’s all the superficial stuff.

    I should probably be more stressed out about work. However I have been extended for another month, so I don’t have to worry about potential unemployment yet. I’m also getting some retro pay since my job was reclassified, so that’s neat. I’m telling everyone that if I don’t have a job in July I’m going to sleep in and it’s this kind of thought that is keeping me from getting too anxious. I’m not lying when I say this. Whenever I start freaking out I just imagine myself lounging in bed on a Tuesday and those feelings just dissappear. Although it is easier to get up in the morning now that the sun is shining at 6 in the morning. Unless it’s raining like it was on Tuesday. I’m happy to have my spring and summer clothes out and my new navy blue undergarment.

    I keep forgetting that I meant to do a Tiny String for May. I guess I still have a few days, including a weekend, to do that. I have one sort of half written. And I have another one sort of thought up. No focus! And I’ve been covering myself in paint instead. AND drinking cider, which does not increase productivity but does promote glee.

  • partial list of songs I will cover when I am a famous pop singer:
    1. enter sandman by metallica
    2. lose yourself by eminem

    that’s all I can think of for now.

    I forgot to report how I took the PCL bus to Vancouver instead of basic transit like I usually do. My review is thus: taking basic transit to Vancouver is dumb.

    I want a hair cut. Only whenever I phone a hair place they want me to be specific. So do you want it cut or styled or coloured…? And specifically I want it cut and styled. Specifics are annoying. “I want my hair to look pretty” is what I will say this time. Maybe they’ll put sparkles and a tiara in it!

  • lady in a red raincoat (with the hood up because it’s rainy) walking into the building with a yellow potted flower
    and the air is blue because behind the clouds the sun is setting.

  • How my morning started
    A list by Lindsie.

    regained consciousness (no dreams while out)
    ensured I could breath (there is prescident for this)
    planned my day
    thought about whether I wished to persue aforementioned plans
    wiggled a bit because I had to pee
    got up (but only because I had to pee)
    peed
    opened curtains to ensure I didn’t sleep through the apocalpse
    decided to persue aforementioned plans
    wrote in my blog for a while, instead.

    The End

  • I did end up going to Van this weekend. I was going to, and then I wasn’t, and then I was. And then I told everyone I might. And then I woke up early on Sat and decided it was a good day to go. I stayed in a Fancy hotel, which is new to me and good to try out. Fancy hotels aren’t that much different from regular hotels, just the bathroom condiments have gold coloured lids, there’s a doorman, and room service breakfast costs $40. The later comes with gourmet ketchup that you don’t know is ketchup because it’s in the same kind of cute little jar as the jams, but you giggle when you notice it. Actually, I giggled in delight a lot at my Fancy hotel. First was the lovely gay receptionist checking me in who had many suggestions about where to shop, and put his fingertips over his mouth like a japanese school girl when he laughed. Then, while I don’t recomend spending so much on a breakfast that is much like any other plate of bacon and eggs (well, the bacon was pretty superior), I did enjoy ticking off the boxes on the card they provided and hanging said card on the doorhandle. Then having selections delivered to me in the morning during Coronation St, by a young gentleman waiter, who brought it right into my room, set it all up on the table and even started the tea for me.

    Conclusion. Fancy hotels are great but entirely not necesary to my happiness or well being.

    I found the best bra ever. I recently decided that after, say, 15 years of attachment to the same style of bra, I need to try something new. The new one is a little padded, where the old style was not; available in colours such as navy blue and maroon; still the same brand, and so far, just as comfortable. Another interesting development, or lack thereof, is the cup size, which is a size less. I always felt that my “c” cup was proof that I was average. Now I’m less so, I guess. Oh, and if you were wondering, and I know that you were! I needed a new style of bra because the previous style keeps showing out from under my shirts in a way that isn’t attractive so I needed a different cut to eliminate this problem, or at least a new bra so I wasn’t showing off how gross my old ones have become.

    So that was at the Sears in Vancouver where I bought that. Interesting story. I tried on my 16 different selections that I had (trying to find a new style) only to discover I might need a different cup size. So I got dressed and instead of asking the customer service people to fetch me the sizes, I was going to fetch them myself (the service people all seemed bewildered that I needed a change room). Also it was busy and I didn’t want to wait. So I asked the service lady there if it was all right if I went for more sizes, leaving my stuff in the room. Again bewilderment ensued. Anyway, I got my sizes, returned to my change room, to have a women inside cry out in protest that the room was occupied. Nevermind that she hadn’t locked the door so I was free to walk right in, nevermind that all my personal stuff (coat, etc) was still there. The woman got out of there pretty quick after I protested that all my stuff was still in there. Heeee. I got the best bra.

    Speaking of old women, old women in Vancouver kept playing chicken with me on the sidewalk and glaring. There would be like 3 of them walking abreast coming up to me, and the one at the end, who should have, you know, let me by, would just stare me down instead, (totally playing chicken! all of them!) so I’d have to get off the sidewalk and walk in traffic instead. Not a big deal, but arriving back in Victoria, two people in a row, you know, ducked back so I could pass on the sidewalk without having to go into traffic to get by. And this was like five steps off the bus. Crazy old Vancouver women! Maybe they expect me to duck back to let them by? But there’s no where for me to duck back to! It’s just me walking!

    Anyway I’m home now and as suspected, my apartment is still a mess.

  • I found some white paint today so I comence making paintings. But did I proceed as planned? No, I thought of something else and started that immediately instead. This is how I roll. On the bright side, the two old paintings I had that I wasn’t quite sure if I liked or not are now covered in white paint and white paper. I’m still not sure if I like them but they are now on their way into something else. So there.

    I voted early today. The dude checking my voter card was super impressed with how young I look. He asked if my ID was fake so I could go to bars, I replied it was fake so I could vote. He let me vote anyway.

    I need a haircut. I’ve been saying this for many many months now but now it’s super true. The ends are dry and gross. Along with the other reasons I’ve been giving of course.

    I’m a little bummed out that I can’t grow a beard. Maybe I’ll save my hair when I get it cut and make my own. This would make a super lame beard, and anyway, would just provide another place for me to drop food on. In?

  • Hi

    So my computer was broken. So I asked Jordan about it and he gave me a list of things to check out. So I did, but then it was still broke. So I invited Jordan over to look it over. And then it was more broke and we went for burgers. That was Monday. So he came back today to look again (with some stuff from his home to try out) and then we went for Chinese food at Rosie’s while something downloaded. When we got back, and before he could install the downloaded thing, the computer started working again. So my computer is now fixed. Hopefully.

    Anyway. Chinese food at Rosie’s is splendid. We tried to go on Monday but it’s closed on Mondays (We knew this, of course, but we went to check anyway. Smitty’s is open for dinner again and maybe the president was set? No. No it wasn’t.)

    I got contacts last week and now when I walk in the rain I’m not angered by the splatters on my glasses! What’s also good about contacts is that I can cover my eyes in exasperation, which is something that comes in handy from time to time.

  • I’m up early because I woke up and instead of rolling over and going back to sleep I got up. Yesterday and the day before and the day before I’ve been sick and so have been in bed for most of the time. Yesterday at 4:30 I decided this was enough and got up and felt better enough, I suppose. My face is still leaking, though and I don’t have much energy. I’m going to lie in bed for a while now and watch Corrie, getting up only at 8 to take my laundry down so I have things to wear in the coming week.

    I decided last night that I am too pretty pretty to ever be in a punk band, but the yelling with guitars looks like a lot of fun.